In Loving Memory

I was rudely awakened by a stranger at 6a.m. Brainless idiot didn't even make a sound when I said 'Hello?' twice. Anyway, I tried going back to sleep but later at around 8a.m I heard my mom saying something about "Michael Jackson is dead!" in the living room. I thought perhaps it was just a figure of speech, because he hasn't really been active lately apart from scheduling the concert in London. And I was still rather groggy myself. A few minutes later the rational part of my brain told me that my previous assumptions just couldn't be right. I mulled the thought over in my head when my mom came into my room, breaking the devastating news to me.

Now, I'm not going to go into the details of his career and details of how he passed away (the cause was said to be due to cardiac arrest), as I'm sure people have already read all about it and I don't want to be redundant. I'm just going to blog about my feelings on this matter.

I am a fan of MJ, well, truthfully, not an ardent one, but I really appreciate and love listening to his songs. I do recall being crazy over his songs when I was a young, young kid though. Sadly, almost none of my friends in primary school are his fans, so I suppose the fandom started to die down a little. I continued listening to his songs and watching his MVs, however. I just had no-one to discuss about him with. Needless to say, I was really distraught with the news and couldn't seem to believe it. Even now, it feels like a hoax. I'm somewhat expecting someone to announce over the media, "Hey! April's Fools was just delayed for 2 and a half months! June's Fools everyone! MJ is not really well but is definitely alive!" or something like that. It's just so... sudden and shocking.

A local radio station, Mix.fm is playing MJ's songs for the whole day today as a tribute to him, and some of it were the American Idol contestants' versions. I nearly cried with agony when Kris' rendition of 'Remember the Time' was on air. What a terrible, terrible disgrace. I'm sorry, but a phenomenal song (one of my favourites, in fact) was instantly turned into a miserably boring one. Flame me all you want, Kris lovers, but I stand by my statement. The point is, MJ is - pardon me, was, a "One and only" type of artist. He was a true performer. To date, I don't think any other artist has managed to create the kind of atmosphere and fandom only MJ is able to. He is truly deserving of the title "The King of Pop" - nobody will be able to take that title away from him.

I saw people posting nasty comments like "Great. One less pervert to worry about." and "Child molesters should burn in hell!" Honestly speaking, those people are rather shallow. You respect and admire an artist/singer for their musical talents, and their personal life is up to them. Kind of like how people started bad talking Adam Lambert when pictures of him kissing another guy was circulated around the internet. Ah well... they are entitled to their thoughts, but I just find it rather disturbing and.... childish.

I wrote some sort of eulogy for him. Sounds kinda cheesy and weird but, oh well.

Michael, it doesn't matter if you are black or white, it is thriller enough to rock with you. I remember the time, the way you make me feel like a smooth criminal listening to you sing the song “Bad”. I cry when I found out that you are gone too soon. I just can't stop loving you and I hope you know that you are not alone.

Sheesh I'm still feeling depressed after a good 10 hours! Although I do not personally know him (DUH!) it's really sad and distressing when a legend passes on, especially when you grew up listening to his songs. I regret that I've never been able to attend his concert at least once. My final words are, "Though he may be physically gone, he will continue to live on as a legend in the hearts of millions. Thank you, Michael, for years and years of solid entertainment. May your soul find eternal peace."

Farrah Fawcett, famous for her debut in the hit TV series, "Charlie's Angels" also passed away due to cancer yesterday. May her soul also find eternal peace. It's actually kind of sad how everyone is buzzing over MJ's death and not paying much heed to Farrah's death... (yes sadly I'm one of them T_T)

Arashi fan message

Emily came over again last night just for fun (since she's leaving for KL this coming Saturday... and so I'm left all alone. Here. Aaaanywayyy...) and we finally got down to writing our messages for the Arashi 10 years anniversary project. She was really tired and wasn't really in the mood to think up of long messages while I was fretting all over it hahaha. She kept staring at me and asked me to get it over and done with ._. Anyway here's the end result :D



The top box was obviously done by me while the bottom one was filled on by Emily haha. We hope Arashi will actually read our messages and not swt over it ._.
By the way I used those 5 colours in the word "Colorful!!" to represent each of them XD Since each Arashi member represents a colour ;D I hope they catch the intended meaning haha ^^

Okay this ends this very short post. Yea I'm kinda uninspired to blog lately but I must say I'm making a huge progress compared to last time. At least I blog a few times a week now as opposed to once every few weeks in the past =.=

Never Again

I've had a good night's rest (well, good, considering yet another weird dream I had. This time it involved lightning and something about Armageddon. Perhaps the world will end because lightning struck everyone =\ I don't know. I hope not o_O) and today I'm feeling pretty much better compared to yesterday. Just one thing left to do. I'm dedicating this song, 'Never Again' by Kelly Clarkson to a certain someone because I feel that the lyrics of the song are SO appropriate. Except that we aren't lovers. It's more like I'll never be able to trust that person ever again. And even though we may remain as friends I doubt it'll ever be the same again. Enjoy.



(This is the only video I was able to find that didn't restrict embedding @_@)

Lyrics:
I hope the ring you gave to her
Turns her finger green
I hope when you're in bed with her
You think of me

I would never wish bad things
But I don't wish you well
Could you tell
By the flames that burned your words?

I never read your letter
'Cause I knew what you'd say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try and make it all okay

Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there?
Bet it sucks
To see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know

You knew
Exactly what you would do
Don't say
You simply lost your way
She may believe you
But I never will
Never again

If she really knows the truth
She deserves you
A trophy wife, oh how cute

Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes
And he's through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die together but alone

You wrote me in a letter
You couldn't say it right to my face
Well give me that Sunday school answer
Repent yourself away

Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never

Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never

Life also has its bitter moments

Sure, life is generally sweet, but it's hard to keep up a cheery front when everything just starts going downhill. And people lord it all over you right in front of your face. That just ain't cool. And sometimes when it becomes too much to handle, it's a relief to be able to rest against the calming darkness that envelops you in its cool embrace.

Okay I'm starting to sound too gothic here (which, incidentally, I am. I love goth. Heaven knows why I set up a hyperactively bouncy bright pink blog which I charmingly named 'Sweet Slices of Life' when I should have named it 'Bitter Flecks of Hell' instead.) No, seriously, I'm should stop sounding so gloomy. After all, what's life if everything's just too sweet? Diabetic, that's what. Ehem. I'm still sounding sarcastic. Pardon me.

Anyway I've been having weird but interesting dreams lately. On Tuesday night I dreamt of Adam Lambert. We were sort of in a telematch game where all players were blindfolded and had to try 'pushing' other players out of the circle. Yeeeeaaahhh... total wth-ness I know. I woke up feeling totally weird.

Wednesday night had me dreaming about 'Heroes'. The main characters in my dream were Sylar, Hiro Nakamura and I. The main plot of the dream was that Sylar and I were trying to escape from a facility, and Hiro joined us later on (I suppose he's trying to escape as well lol). In th dream I could freeze time, but my power had a time limit (something like Piper from 'Charmed'). Anyway we managed to escape from the facility, but when we were outside a car came speeding towards us. Noah Bennett was in the driver's seat while Claire was in the passenger seat, both of them poking their heads out of the window yelling something rather intimidating at the both of us. Later other cars started surrounding us as well, and those people were all wielding guns o_O For some reason Sylar tried to shield me (Awww... XP) but I got shot all the same. (dang D:) It was a pretty nasty wound, so he carried me and I'm not quite sure how but we managed to escape those maniacs lol. Whatever happened next was a blur, you know how dreams are, it's a wonder you actually get to remember it the next day.

Last night's was probably the weirdest dream I had in ages. For some unexplainable reason, I dreamt of Leonardo DiCaprio. I say it's weird because I'm not even a fan of him. I've only watched two movies of his - Blood Diamond and Titanic. And while I think that Blood Diamond is a brilliant movie, I haven't given much thought to the actors after watching it 2 years ago. So why on earth did I even dream of Leonardo? I can't really recall the dream in detail, but apparently I was chatting with him about something in a limo. I even took a picture with him =_= Yeah... sounds dumb, I know. I also dreamt about my primary school music teacher, Puan Ding. (To non-Malay speaking people, Puan is the Malay term for 'Madam', or 'Mrs.') Apparently she was going to conduct some sort of orchestra, and I was to play the piano. This really brought back memories of my primary school days =D

Anyway, yeah. The most vivid dream I recalled was obviously the 'Heroes' dream lol. I was just summarizing it all up in this post haha. Gyeh, I suppose I feel slightly better now. As long as I don't bump into any more offensive people today ;D

Holy smokes I drove a car illegally!

Emily came over tonight (as she does almost every Wednesday and Friday nights) and we had fun shooting the crotches of zombies in Resident Evil on Wii. Time passed by real quick, and before we knew it, it was time for her to say buh-bye. I accompanied her downstairs (I live in a flat) as she needed help carrying the box of 'Hajime Kindaichi' manga I borrowed from her. Once we were downstairs, I asked her casually,

Me : Let's go for a spin.

Emily : Sure. Let's go.

Me : Wth you serious? How 'bout you let me go for a test drive in your car and you be my 'driving instructor'?

Emily : Sure. If you're fine with it I'm fine with it.

Me : O_O XDDD Hokayyyy let's do this XD

Emily : Okay now just let me find an empty stretch of road where there aren't any cars then we can switch places.

*finally finds a place where it's literally deserted*

*changes seats*

And yay! My first time in the driver's seat! (Excluding those times when I was a kid posing in a stationary car with no keys XP) Yes, sadly, even though I'm of legal age to drive, for some reason my dad is still reluctant to let me take up a driving license -_- Emily drives an auto, so it was slightly easier to maneuver? Hahaha my first time stepping on the accelerator was total wth-ness, I didn't quite know how much pressure to apply so the car moved very jerkily XD;;; but Emily had her hands on the steering wheel as well and told me how much pressure to apply so all went well :D I even made a turn! No, make it TWO turns!! XDD

Thank goodness the ride went smoothly (well, it WAS really jerky, actually, but the point is I didn't bang into anyone/thing LOL. There was once where her car came real close to brushing the side of a stationary car but we managed to pull through that XP;; And also another time where I managed to brake in time at a corner where there was an oncoming car so... yeah ^^

All in all I'd say I did pretty good for someone who doesn't even know the basics of driving XP Heck, I haven't even sat for the "Undang-undang" paper (Which literally translates to driving law, or something like that. Correct me please if I'm wrong.) To say the least, this was definitely a night to remember ;P

Bleach 'haikus'

I was flipping through my old notebook and realised that I haven't written haikus in ages, and the sudden urge to make up random haikus surged through me. Since I'm currently (re)obsessed with Bleach, one random word led to another and before I knew it, I came up with a bunch of (totally senseless and stupid) Bleach haikus! XP

[In case you do not know, a haiku is a form of Japanese poetry that is typically written in a 5-7-5 syllable format]

Here goes!

Abarai Renji
A fiercely loyal warrior
With really cool shades

(This was the first one I did that got me started on this craziness XD)

Kuchiki-taichou
A charismatic captain
Whose glance freezes all

(>w<;;;)

Yamamoto-jii
Elderly yet deadly man
His bankai pwns all

(Yes I know pwn technically isn't a word but oh well *shrugs*)

Ichi A Gogo
A substitute soul reaper
Name means strawberry

(I've ALWAYS loved calling Ichigo that way >D Besides, it fits the 5 syllable criteria 8D)

Hitsugaya-kun
Young captain of the tenth squad
Tiny yet deadly

(I love that last sentence XD)

Sousuke Aizen
Sneaky captain of squad five
Do not mess with him

(This one got me LOL-ing XD)

Ichimaru Gin
Has a really freaky grin
Makes everyone cringe

(Possibly my favourite of the lot XD)

Hiisagi Shuuhei
Guy with the kinky tattoo
God knows what it means

(Hahaha I didn't quite know how to end it =\)

Grimmjow Jaegerjaques
Once lost his arm to Tousen
He has bright blue hair

(I swear his long name is only 5 syllables long! O_O)

Yumichika-san
Loves nothing more than beauty
Extreme narcissist

(You know what, I really like Yumichika! He's ghey XD)

Kenpachi-taichou
Battlefield loving maniac
Wears a cool eyepatch

(Initially thought of 'Has a weird hairstyle' but I've already used hair for Grimmjow lol)

And that's all I did (for now, anyway). Yes yes I do realise that most of them (fine, ALL of them) are weird but hey! I was having some fun there! I might actually continue making haikus for each of the main characters in Bleach (yes I know I left out Rukia T_T) when I feel like it >w<

To-Do List + Opinions on blogowar

Gyahh I've been doing nothing but procrastinate for these past few months. Every day I wake up, bathe/eat, sit in front of the comp for about 4 hours, play my NDS, read a novel, eat, sleep, same cycle all over again. And I'm terribly ashamed to say that I haven't been keeping up with my resolution of practicing my instruments more (instruments being the piano and violin, no 'hehe' thoughts people!) even though I've been given all the time in the world. Here are a couple of things I'm forcing myself to do by the end of the month.

#1 : Upload the base piano instrumental version of 'Last Song' for VapourXY on YouTube. I feel so terribly bad - I've held it off for about 2 months now =\ Bad bad me >_< I promise to get it done by this week ._.

#2 : Get started on the ARASHI 10th Anniversary fan message project by Arashi_On. The deadline's some time next week O_O

#3 : Be able to play the whole Toccata in D Minor (the...Dracula theme song) decently by the end of this month. Gosh my LTCL exam is in half a year and I still can't play the full song! Also practice Jeux Deau. My life depends on it.

#4 : Draft out the program notes for my LTCL exam. Experience has told me that program notes can either make or break you. And thank God my notes for the ATCL examination received rather high marks.

#5 : Get started on the story I had in mind but just too darned lazy to write down.

Now that my 'list' is out of the way, I'm going to give my opinion on the (amusing) 'blogowar' (I prefer calling it a catfight) between Yumimi and Ann-Hime. The gist of the war is about smoking. Yumimi was trashing smokers, while Ann-Hime was justifying them. So there. Now, I personally know Yumimi and I've never even met Ann-Hime, and I think both of them have the right to rant all they want in their own blogs, but I must say Yumimi is being a tad bit extreme when she says that she'll break up with her boyfriend if he starts smoking. Well, it's her choice and she entitled to her opinion, but yeah. I still think it's a tad bit extreme.

And perhaps she just needs to calm down a little, she says she expected some sort of reaction from Ann-Hime but she isn't used to backlash, but really, if you trashed someone, you don't quite expect them to smile at you and say, 'Gee, thanks. That was reaaaallly nice of you to diss me back there. Now why don't I add in an extra cube of sugar in your tea and we can both laugh and smile about how you totally put me down in your post." Sorry, Yumimi, but you did sort of trash talk about some stuff I love in the past and so I'm telling you why people retaliate the way they do. So just chill out.

As for my opinion on smokers, I hate them. Inconsiderate cigarette smokers, at least. Boy oh boy, I wouldn't want to relive that time when I was helping my uncle out in his handphone shop and dozens of people walked past smelling like a whole barrel of smoke. Heck, some customers even puffed straight in my face without even having the decency to turn his head sideways. Dumb selfish idiots. No matter. Retribution still exists. However, people who choose to smoke already know the risks they're taking, yet still continue to do so. Fine by me. So as long as you do not drag me along to your early grave. If you want to smoke that badly, then please, do it some place where it would not affect others, for heaven's sake.

I would, however, be interested in pipe-smoking at least once in my life. Not as an addict, but just to experience the taste of tobacco. Apparently pipe-smoking poses less threat of contracting cancer (hey, I'm not saying it's safe, I'm saying that it's not as dangerous as cigarette smoking, according to what I've been reading online anyway) as long as you do not overdo it. And I won't be doing it any time soon (ARE YOU CRAZY DO YOU WANT MY PARENTS TO BEAT ME TO A PULP??!). I'm just really taken to the idea of pipe-smoking (it looks waaay cooler than waving a cigarette stick, IMO >P) and I'd really like to use a Kiseru (an old style Japanese smoking pipe) once :D (Ok fine so sue me for watching too much anime and thinking that they look cool.)


Kiseru


This ends my post. I hope I didn't quite offend anyone :P

Of hair, boots and costumes.

So DaiCon (an anime convention in Malaysia, to be held at Multimedia University, Cyberjaya, on the 11th and 12th of July) is approaching soon (heck, it's less than 30 days away!), and I still haven't assembled my costume. I haven't even bought the materials for my costume (I'm planning to go as a Wa-Loli this year instead of my typical Gothic Loli getup :D) for heaven's sake! But I suppose for now, getting the main costume done isn't my biggest worry. I could get it done in about 3 weeks if I start working on it now. The one true thing I'm cracking my head over are, yes, shoes.

It is almost impossible to find a suitable pair of lolita-type platform shoes here in Butterworth/Penang, and even more impossible to find a pair of punk/gothic elevated boots. Have no idea what I'm talking about?


Lolita/goth-style shoes


Punk/goth boots


The only way I'll be able to get them is
(a) Go to KL and scout around, and possibly burn a ginormous hole in my wallet because stuff like these are rare here and the stores will mark up the price like ZOMG, and also endure disapproving glares from my parents throughout the shopping process because they never let me travel alone even though I'm legally old enough to do so, or
(b) Buy online. Terrific amount of choices, reasonable prices BUT highly risky because it's always a gamble to buy shoes without even trying them on beforehand.

The next thing I'm fussing over is my hair. Somehow, I regret chopping off my rather long pin-straight locks late last year. Now my hair looks something like this except that the bottom part (do you call it a tail? idk) is slightly longer and my hair colour is a darker shade of brown.


Teehee Yunho-oppa 8D

I regret cutting off my hair because now I won't be able to mess around with it as much as I used to, and most importantly I need longer 'tails' to pull off my desired wa-loli look T_T And hair doesn't grow long overnight. As for wigs, my parents would probably kill me for spending so much on fake hair (yes I'm a terribly restricted young adult.... sadly). My best bet now is to find hair extensions, which I hope I'll be able to come across here in the teeny town called Butterworth. I'm also planning to go platinum blonde but I'm kinda worried that it wouldn't go well with my skin tone. Ahh...more things to worry about =\

Finally, the costume. Part of me is actually considering to buy it online, another part of me is worried that the actual product isn't as fab as it looks online (and the measurements! Don't forget the measurements! It might fit me like a glove, it might also fit me like a gunnysack.) Because of this, there's the other options of finding a tailor, or tailoring it myself. Now, I have no experience with sewing (my home ec projects were all completed by my mom way back in Form 3), but with all those amazing tutorials online, I suppose I might be able to construct a decent dress....? Anyway I saw this costume which was the embodiment of the design I had in mind on ebay :



And it only costs USD60 inclusive of shipping! Saves a huge load of time searching for fabric and tailors! But then again, in order to buy it online, I'd have to resort to asking my dad for his credit card, and he'll most probably object to it anyway... Ah well...

Anyway I should probably stop ranting now nfufufu. To everyone reading this and will be/is planning on going to DaiCon, see you guys there~ :D

Randomest quote of the day

Yumimi and I were chatting about our Bleach RP a few minutes ago, making up random characters and her character hates Ichimaru-taichou and likes Hitsugaya-taichou. When I asked her 'So who do you hang out with in the story?', the conversation continued as such :-

Yumimi: maybe I'm a loner and hate the school people for sending me to 3rd division and I hate my captain.

me: ...swt. That's so sad!

Yumimi: oh ok fine i adore him then =_= and I hang out with Kira because there's no one else to hang out with. There.

me: =_____= Then how did you meet your Hitsu?

Yumimi: ok fine i'll think of sumthing.

me: Oh maybe you saw his status 'I hate Ichimaru Gin' on seireiteibook then you decided he was interesting so you added him as a friend XDDDDD

ROFL XD So yeah that's one of the most random thing I've ever said. When she asked how the hell I came up with that thought, I replied "Oh well you know how everyone's all over facebook these days" ♥

P/S : We're just two girls who are obsessed with anime/manga and making up random RPs. No, we are NOT Mary Sues. Girls just wanna have fun ♥

Misery

No, I'm not in misery, I just finished reading the novel entitled 'Misery' written by the great Stephen King :D Yes I do realise that I'm rather out of date reading this only now, but I only started to actually read Stephen King's works late last year when my friend offered to lend me her copy of 'The Dark Half' (which is also a really gripping and interesting piece). I was hooked instantaneously.

I am very lucky that one of my dad's friends read a lot, and have some S.K books in possession, so he lent those to me as well :D And the latest book I've finished reading is Misery.






















'Misery' is a tale about a bestselling author, Paul Sheldon, who drives to L.A after completing a novel, Fast Cars despite having drunk three bottles of champagne. In his inebriated state he is unaware that the Colorado Western Slope is going to be hit with one of the biggest snowstorms of the year in a few hours, loses control of his car, drives off the road and tumbles down the hill.

He is rescued by a nurse, Annie Wilkes, who takes him to her home to recuperate instead of sending him to a hospital. Annie tells Paul that she is his number one fan and loves his bestselling series, Misery. When Annie reads the latest copy of the series which was just released around that time, she is enraged that he killed off Misery in his last book, and orders him to 'bring Misery back to life'. Paul initially refuses to do so, but when he realizes that Annie is insane and will stop at nothing to get her book, he is forced to comply.

The book then centers on how Paul tries to escape but fails to do so, and how he later came to realize that he was not only writing the book for Annie - he himself had found the novel turning out to be his best Misery book ever written.

I'd say this novel is not as horrifying as it is gruesome, there are certain scenes that depict Annie torturing Paul which are really... well, vivid and gory. The thing I like about Stephen King is that you can really picture the scene in your mind's eye based on his descriptions. He really is a talented story writer. I'm currently reading Pet Semetary, and so far so good :D

So to those of you who enjoy reading a classic psychological thriller, do read Misery ;)

いらっしゃいませ!

Irasshaimase, or 'Welcome/Come in" in Japanese \(^o^)/

Now first things first, I used to blog pretty much irregularly in the past (with constant excuses of "I'm not inspired to blog! And what's the point of posting up what I last had for lunch when nobody in the world gives a horse $#!+ about that"), sometimes having intervals of up to months. Here's to hoping that this rotten attitude would all change with the birth of yet another new blog ;P

As you might have noticed, I have a tendency to use mild language (Alright, so I swear in real life. A lot.) But I'll try my best to refrain from using profanities in this -innocent- blog because swearing your head off is just so mature. *Kindly note sarcasm* Also because there might actually be young kids who read this, and I don't want to set a bad example *wink*

Candyliciou-s is set up with the intention of penning down (in this case, typing out) random bits and pieces that occur to me daily, or just random thoughts and musings. In a nutshell, my current life in general. If you prefer reading works of fiction, you may visit my other blog at Crimson Serenade. Hopefully I'll update both blogs regularly ^-^

Whew. I suppose this is pretty lengthy for an introductory post. I'll stop ranting right now ;)